to bed you go

Right, so I'm considering starting over my blog. I'm thinking of going in a new direction, trying something new!  I'm not sure why it wouldn't follow on from my previous posts, but its something that Ivie been thinking over.

I want my blog to actually tell the reader something about me! Rather than all this trollop! That splats on the page at night, when I'm too tired and yet too awake to even consider sleeping!

I think it ought to have more of my pictures or videos, Personality. Something that I've created, something I'd call ART!

But i recently nothing that I capture is good enough. Not for anyone else to see! I used to be proud of my pictures, but now I find myself trailing through millions and trillions of images that are to me pretty crap! I want to NO I need to start being better. And being Just Jade.

trying to capture something interesting, whilst out on my travels

I did say that recently my photos have been 'rubbish'

birds in flight - where are they going? and do they actually care where they end up?

So maybe putting this blog to bed is the best option...

sleep deprived

why am i still up at this horrific hour..when i will be getting up to face the next day so very soon!? but how can one sleep, when they cant and they have found themselves developed the habit of then being afraid to sleep.

how can one be afraid of sleep?i ask myself...maybe something like a teddy might make me feel better..but he's in the loft, for punishment! so moving on!
i thought that righting down how im feeling might allow me to understand the fear that i am feeling.. and yes i am feeling it but there is nothing to 'do' to resolve the issue other than to not 'think' which is near impossible. i figure the only reason we have trouble sleeping is the fact our brains dont fully switch off in our sleep, like our hearts, hopefully..fingers crossed!

as i sit here, tucked up in bed, i am wasting precious time 'sleeping' and if i dont get at least eight hours, i will be as grumpy as i was yesterday and trust me no one can handle that! not even me..and no amount of caffeine will be able to fix it! so i guess i better face the facts, act my age and feel the fear and switch off and sleep like a baby with a blankie..or not!